Walking the Passage: I want to overcome all those thoughts that say what will it look like.... and hope instead it will look like radical obedience ....

Friday, May 13, 2011

I want to overcome all those thoughts that say what will it look like.... and hope instead it will look like radical obedience ....

I've been thinking about so very many things in regards to the demonstration of the Kingdom of God and the movements of our Father .... I've thought about the Pharisees in the days of old and thought about how they operated around Christ.... Here they had the living God ... God in flesh dwelling in their midst and yet they couldn't grab a hold of that reality...

They had a structure ... an exterior adherence to the law .. to religion .. to performance.. but they didn't see it that way.. they had the way they thought they should follow.. they had been trained up in it... they had spent their life "knowing"? about God...

If I sit and think of them ... I get quiet these days....

Would I have recognized Him?

would I have seen in Him the Lord I was taught to worship and know or would I be upset that there were those breaking rules and traditions ... Would I have followed even after the hard things He had to say or would I have cowered out in lack of understanding....

What edge does He call me to? What place does He hunger for me to walk into? Where would He lead?

In the heart of being honest I am going to share an experience I had recently.... I was worshipping and Jesus as I know Him to be present was standing by my left side.... The reality of Him being there was stronger than anything I had felt in a long time.... but even with that... even with all that I knew that was happening I hesitated.. I hesitated in doing what I knew He wanted me to do....

Why? Fear...

As time as passed since that moment I have thought a lot about who I want to be and where I want to live in relationship to my Father's Kingdom... and it is not in fear....

I want to live where He wants me to.... I want to live where He has called me to... I love seeing and hearing and sensing Him... but I want to love to do anything and everything that I would know that He would call me to.... regardless of what it looks like.... regardless of what I look like...

There was a saying a while back.. a conversation being had about the choice to choose respectability over the anointing.... and I'm hungry .. hungry to see Him move.. hungry to the point where I'm caring less and less about what it will look like and just wanting Him.....and willing to overcome fear to grab a hold of my Savior's hand and be led by Him ... for where He leads that is where I want to be...

I'm not wanting a demonstration for the sake of a demonstration.. I wouldn't steal from my Father like that... but I will walk and do that which I see and know.... I want to overcome all those thoughts that say what will it look like.... and hope instead it will look like radical obedience ....

I am my Father's daughter... and that is what I want to be.... I want to bear His image and have His presence upon my life in a way that brings Him honor and glory.... hoping not to have to spit in mud but if it means another is healed I will listen and obey.....

here is to living a life of that looks like that of a citizen of Heaven

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One of my Favorite Narnian Quotes...

“One word, Ma’am,” he said, coming back from the fire; limping because of the pain. “One word. All you’ve been saying is quite right, I shouldn’t wonder. I’m a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won’t deny any of what you said, even so. Suppose we have only dreamed, or made up, all those things – trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that’s a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We’re just babies making up a game, if you’re right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world that makes you real world hollow. That’s why I’m going to stand by the play-world. I’m on Aslan’s side even if there isn’t any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we’re leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for the Overland.

A Brilliant Quote from Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,

but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightening about shrinking

so that others won't feel unsure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us; it is in every one.

As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.