Walking the Passage: Permission

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Permission

He reduced me to tears... He brought me to my knees and clinging to Him I just wept.... Holding onto the cloth of His garments in my hands ... leaning my whole weight into Him and just collapsing myself against Him....

His goodness .. His kindness had overwhelmed me.... and I was undone ..

So often aware of propriety and the correct way to behave... so so very often having felt the consequences of something not going perfectly... so desperately performing life and expectations and failing miserably on the insides.. and at times the outsides too...

In these moments with Him I knew.. I knew the safety .. the affection.. the absolute unconditional love that He grants... and the strength of that love that filtered and flowed into my being...

In those moments He granted permission that I had never given to myself... He looked me in the eyes and with so much of that which He is He looked at me and seeing me He spoke for me to walk... and in those few but very powerful words permission was granted into my heart to be the me He created for me to be... Not a me that performed or a me that felt expectation but me.... not to apologize for me (as I so often felt that I needed to do ... apologize that I lived.. that I breathed..that I took up time... that I whatever you will fill in the blank) but no longer feeling like a mistake that took up air the reality of being His co-heir and our Father's daughter saturated my soul... and soaked me... and filled me.. and I could feel the change it was bringing to bare.....

He does.. He changes us and changes us and changes us.. all by His perfecting love that looks at fear and casts it off far far away...

Again the acknowledgement that I am His and live in a land of grace and mercy flowed over me like living waters and I was washed in His tremendous flow of love.....

1 comment:

Terry said...: I very much enjoyed reading your written thoughts. They so resemble mine in so many ways as I'm sure many could be included in that count. You have a nice usage of words in order to draw one closer to what you are saying and, at the same time, be eager to read on. Thank you for sharing your heart and for encouraging us in our passage on this earth.; March 22, 2012 at 4:50 PM

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One of my Favorite Narnian Quotes...

“One word, Ma’am,” he said, coming back from the fire; limping because of the pain. “One word. All you’ve been saying is quite right, I shouldn’t wonder. I’m a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won’t deny any of what you said, even so. Suppose we have only dreamed, or made up, all those things – trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that’s a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We’re just babies making up a game, if you’re right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world that makes you real world hollow. That’s why I’m going to stand by the play-world. I’m on Aslan’s side even if there isn’t any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we’re leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for the Overland.

A Brilliant Quote from Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,

but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightening about shrinking

so that others won't feel unsure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us; it is in every one.

As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.