Thursday, January 27, 2011

I have been defined.....

"Once you were not a people but now you are the people of God...."

I understood the "not" aspect of this so very well.... But now ... now I am stepping into a daydream of sorts... but it isn't a daydream... it is the deepest reality....

I am thoroughly branded as His... I belong to Him... I am His.... His daughter...

I have tried to describe the deep joy and contentment that resides within my soul over this fact.... a solidness that just fills the core of who I am with a radiant warmth that resonates peace and love and joy and strength....

I have always wanted to be a daughter... not just by birth..... I have always wanted to know the joy of one who would call me daughter...to know that there is a mutual delight and affection between parent and child.....

He created me within the womb of my mother.... He has known me and seen me before I was even conceived... He conceived of me... His thoughts brought my being into being... and His thoughts were only those of love.....

I belong to Him... not to this world.. not to anything else that would try to define me.... I have been defined... I am His and His love brings form to all that would encompass that definition..... I am wonderfully and fearfully made... made in the image of Father... resembling Him.... reflecting Him.. that is all I want out of this life....

I didn't know the joy of being a daughter ... I knew what it was like to not be ... to not be a people... a person.. I knew lack...... and now... well now I get to know this solid place... this solid place where I soar.... where joy just envelopes me just because.. just because I am His... He is my Father... He is Father... a good... loving... gentle... strong... amazing... wonderful... Father.... who adores me as His daughter... and walks with me and keeps me to Himself....

Nothing that this world... this life... the enemy... works.... ministry... nothing... nothing even comes close to touching this place.... I am not defined by what I do but whose I am .... and I am His.... and that ... that is just a completely amazing thing that tonight just is exploding in my chest like fireworks going off over and over and over and over again... exploding in color and in celebration... In noise.... and In light...

That which is true about this pulsates within me and bursts forth life and joy and hope and courage and boldness and and and and and and ...... may I always only ever have eyes for Him and live my life so lost within that gaze .. walking side by side.. hand in hand... His strength surrounds me and fills me and embraces me ...

Oh He is such an amazing Father... He is such an amazing Father... I didn't know .. I didn't realize.. I didn't understand.. I couldn't see.... it was His love that opened my eyes.. His passion for me that healed my heart... His hunger for me to walk and know what it was like to belong to Him as His daughter..... all that I am and all that I will ever do while upon the face of the Earth may it just bring Him glory... may I just reflect His image clearer and clearer so as to show forth how marvelous He is.....

I wanted to be fathered with all that was within me... I was perishing because my heart so lacked and my inner being so hungered .... and now.. now I am filled ... now my heart thrives... now... now .. now I am fathered... I am fathered... and He does it oh so very well.... I am His... all my days .. I am His...

I was not a person... I did not belong... but now ... now now... I belong to the most marvelous .. wonderful... incredible being.. and I don't just belong.... I am His daughter... forever... forever I have been defined... loved... cherished and adored... forever and for forever.. it will be

2 comments:

Molly Patterson said...

seriously dear friend...seriously....

"I belong to Him... not to this world.. not to anything else that would try to define me.... I have been defined... I am His and His love brings form to all that would encompass that definition..... I am wonderfully and fearfully made... made in the image of Father... resembling Him.... reflecting Him.. that is all I want out of this life...."

it is the measure of eternity in your heart that has brought this beauty from you and into print. And as we both know, eternity cannot be measured. So the love that you carry, is both eternal and cannot be measured. Not by man's knowledge or understanding.
Thank you friend....

Ginnie said...

your husband posted the link to this, and I am glad he did. you words strike a chord deep inside me, one that plays the same notes you are singing. not being fathered. I always cry when I watch beautiful movies about fathers and daughters, and wish it could have been so between my father and me. I think there are many like us. However, your beautiful song of the Father's love also touched me deeper than the old disappointment, and reminded me of how much I am loved and cared for. Your words ring true, sing truth and bring forth a truth to those of us who need the reminder. and to those of us who have never known this truth. Thaks for an honest and lovely post. yours in Him, Ginnie