All week long I heard the song playing in my head and all week long I wondered... Then upon a church service the song filled the air and I was brought low... I found my seat and was filled with wonderment...
The words: if you lead me Lord I will follow.. Where you lead me Lord I will go...
Simple enough ... But .... Really?!?!
Not so simple ....
He is changing my paradigms and the way I see things in so many areas of my life that I feel it upon my person..
A friend used the words freefall and that dearest friends is the best picture...
That which I have known and seen and believed ( not about the absolute truths of God) but about the way some things work and operate are somewhat all up in the air...
Upon myself I feel a letting go of old perceptions of things in regards to the ways I have learned He moves with and among His people... I feel paradigms shifting and in that there is a lack of clarity for me...
Not confusion just an understanding that there are times to let go of preconceived notions of how He moves and times to see what was a cultural agreement and what was God...
So I'm being lead into this time of shaking and growth..
Can I really sing those words honestly ... Wherever He leads me... Oh my heart and spirit want to scream those words and shout them and bravely declare them...
However ... My soul wants to see and count the cost.... I want understanding of the where before the declaration and I know enough to know that there is no long term road map displayed for me to them be able to say... Ok I'll go there..
To be honest I feel like the things I have held dear with the way He moves and operates within the prophetic are on the chopping block...
Not that there isn't prophetic things but that things we have called prophetic have been more of a cultural agreement than that which God would say or do and there is a solid call going out to grow deeper and more reliable and strong ....
To have clear strong voices full of love and clarity ringing out like liberty bells across a nation .... Men and women of character walking forth... Watching their idle words .. Soaked in the presence and affections of the Father ... Walking in kingdom authority ..
I have no clear idea or understanding of the road that I feel being laid out before me but there's a path and Father and I are standing at the proverbial edge and He is asking .. If I lead you there will you follow .. If I lead you there will you go...
Now the there aspect much of me wants to say no... Not there ... But the Him aspect ... His "I " in the equation that is what wins my heart .. If I go there ( whatever the there is) You will be there?
Well then like Moses said if You go I will ho but without You I won't ...
That is key for all the places we need to all venture... Not walking out on our own good ideas or assumptions but being lead by Him... Following Him... Now that I can do .. With His grace and strength and with Him.. In Him I can do all things.. I just must reside in Him...
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