Walking the Passage: The Kindnesses of the Wildernesses.. Lessons learned Part 2: It would have been legitimacy in what I could do but an illegitimate child I would have been

Monday, March 26, 2012

The Kindnesses of the Wildernesses.. Lessons learned Part 2: It would have been legitimacy in what I could do but an illegitimate child I would have been

I think of Moses' invitation to all... inclusive.... to the nation … come into the deep darknesses of God with me.. and they bid him go... out of fear they bid him go and come back to tell them.... as all powerful and somewhat terrifying as the deep darknesses of my Father are I desire to linger there... in His presence... in His midst.... To be known as His... to be identified as one whose God is with her.... His presence.. His display.. His character... His passions.. His desires... Him... He... possessed.... solely by His desires... His presence...

Again the congregation wanted a king.... their King had set the stars in their place and yet flesh cried out even if it meant slavery.... even if it meant servitude instead of sonship... they wanted to be told what to do.. they wanted to be like the other nations... Instead of THE NATION.... the nation whose “god” is the Lord of lords.... and King of Kings.....

Other nations saw it... saw it as they crossed the Jordan.. saw it as the walls of Jericho fell down... saw it as He went out before them... other nations saw it .. saw them... saw their God... the other nations knew and were terrified and yet those called to be His.. those that were His desired to be like the other nations..... intermingling with their cultures.. their comforts... while all the while.. having .. belonging.. being called to the One who formed all the nations and to whom all nations and tongues will bow....

I have been that person... I have been there....

And the years that all that was being peeled off were not pleasant.. they were painful.. they were full of sadness... they were lonely..... who I am kidding... there are still the days full of pain and sadness but time has taught me that they pass and that the comforts I might desire to reach out to upon the earth are all but too temporary.

So now in that place now I know beyond where I have ever known before where to go.. what to attach to.. and are there still the times my soul desires to attach to other things.. of course.. but now I know the riches of binding myself to the Most High... above all else... above all and anything I could or would ever do.... above anyone I could or would ever meet or spend time with.. above anything .. above anywhere.... He is creating within an understanding of the wealth of being a daughter.... and in this birthing of understanding I am watching as I perish no longer... for lack of understanding I perished.. but as understanding has come so has the Tree of Life and He has been firmly rooted and planted inside my inner most being......

So I praise Him for I am wonderfully and fearfully made.. and my soul knows it well..... and my soul knows it well...

His goodness .. His lovingkindness.. His shadow... His affections... His.. His … His... they follow me... they encamp about me... they shelter me.... not works... not things... not people.... Him... The Lord Most High.... ... who being God did not see equality with God as something to be grasped but laid down His life to serve.... He has shown me such a better way..... and this is the way …. I will walk in it.....

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One of my Favorite Narnian Quotes...

“One word, Ma’am,” he said, coming back from the fire; limping because of the pain. “One word. All you’ve been saying is quite right, I shouldn’t wonder. I’m a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won’t deny any of what you said, even so. Suppose we have only dreamed, or made up, all those things – trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that’s a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We’re just babies making up a game, if you’re right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world that makes you real world hollow. That’s why I’m going to stand by the play-world. I’m on Aslan’s side even if there isn’t any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we’re leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for the Overland.

A Brilliant Quote from Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,

but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightening about shrinking

so that others won't feel unsure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of us; it is in every one.

As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.